i wish i could turn by brain off

i can’t stop my mind from thinking

every other thing that can go stinking

wrong

i wish i could turn my brain off

i wish i was dumb or numb

to all my fears

i wish i was not here

at the place that i find myself

i find myself

as i never though i would be

i am he that i hated

i am the heel

overly sensitive

too thin my skin

too proud of my past

and now that the die’s been cast

and now the future’s fast approaching

and matter’s arisen that once

i was scared of broaching

i wish i could turn my brain off

i wish i was dumb

or numb

a future bum

object of ridicule

object of horror

maq the apathetic fool.