So close

I was so close to telling you

But never did

Time passed

And you went out with some asshole who did

You’d come back and tell me what ails him

How inconsiderate he was, how my kindness trails him

Yet you would always walk away

After a heart to heart

A love untold, dead before the start

I wonder sometimes if you take pleasure

In making me burn in your time of leisure

Do you use people in all manners and ways

I am sure you know how crazed

You make me

When you forsake me

And I remain

Forever your friend

I wish it would end

Sometimes I hate you

Much as I hate myself

And my tied up tongue

Which is razor sharp with everyone

Except you

With you it’s tied in knots

With you I am so twisted

Turned around, i had my chance

I missed it

Are you punishing me now ?

If you are not happy, then leave him

Yet you always go back and believe him

That he will change and be a better man

And why am I always dismissed out of hand

If this was Hollywood you would come to me in the end

If this was Bollywood, we’d sing a song and dance into the sunset in the end

But this ain’t even Lollywood, where a letter goes astray

Or we run away

From Zalim Samaj, your dad

This is the most painful thing I have ever had

To bear

So I sit and I measure

How close that I got

How when you are near me

I sometimes breathe in your scent

How for your callousness, I pretend

You can’t help be this way

It’s my fault in a way

I wish I could say

What I been wanting to say

Goodbye