The state of me
(Words & Music BWLG)
(Vox Bilal Zero)

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Choosing an illusion when you don’t understand it of
Moving in the opposite direction again from you
Losing time and space and count of all the moments passing by
Bruising from the reasons and the lessons that are taught by time
Healing from the moods that I’ve been lost and drained all dry of
Telling lies and all my foolish tries at being immune of love
Letting cynicism rule and hardness take hold of my heart
I am finally grown up, ever since we have been apart

I am not alright, I’m not OK
I am not all fine, I’ve lost my way

Feeding time and all your pets come around and wait for you
I’ve been kicked around a little too much like a dog that’s had
Life kicked out of him, and keeps coming back again for more
But I have to get in line, and wait on my turn at your door
I’ve read in a book that all it took for a man to cry
Was for him to lose his pride, for him to crawl on by
Sometimes I want to quit, sometimes wanna restart
There’s a beast inside of me, ever since we’ve been apart

I am not alright, I’m not OK
I am not all fine, I’ve lost my way

I wrote out this song to hurt you just as I’ve been hurt
This is what I feel, and it is real, I sing for what it’s worth
Don’t know how you’ll hear this, but I will sing and play for you
Share my pain about you for everyone who’s been hurt by you
It’s been years and wasted tears, and I fear I am not over you
My friends telling me to get a life, I guess we are through
Whiny ass singing, all this whinging, and these songs so blue
Singing songs about you is not a way to get on over you

I am not alright, I’m not OK
I am not all fine, I’ve lost my way