Why waste time?

Enough feeling sorry for myself

I have been just wasting time

What will be will be

If I keep falling, it’d be

too far to climb

up and out

i can live without

this continual state of tension

without this heaped upon attention

i don’t want to feel bad anymore

i wan’t to be was i was

carefree and productive

focused and effective

not distracted, defective

why do i waste time

especially as that’s the

only thing that’s really mine.